Let the Song come forth

Tonight was a great night at BSSM Atlanta. Because of a function going on at OM we couldn't meet in our normal room. We met only as 1st year and we were in the small chapel located downstairs. Now this is considerably smaller than the worship center that we are used to. We were pretty packed in there. We had a sweet intimate time of worship, it was great.
Now a couple of times in worship Tracy Cooper has come around with a mike and had people sing prophetically on the spot. Everytime she did this I was like oh, my what if she picks me. The first time I was freaked out, and then the second time I was like well this wouldn't be so bad. Well we've not done that for about 3 weeks now. So tonight, we had a lot of just instrumental parts of the song "Freedom Reigns". Everybody is really singing and getting into it,really releasing freedom, it was awesome. I'm thinking to myself, wow I really hope they do the spontaneous prophetic song, because I wanted to be picked, I was totally ready. A few minutes later the worship leader says that they are going to open the mike to people that feel like stepping out and embracing the freedom in the room. As soon as she said that my heart just starts racing because I know that its partly for me. I didn't move. A few minutes later Scott gets up and says how we all were just singing and as soon as she opened the mike up everyone got quiet, and no one moved. Well this older man who is really amazing, Tom, got up and sang then a few more people, it was really freeing just watching these people worship. It was like stepping into their prayer closet and just enjoying them worship Jesus. As all of this is going on my palms are sweating and I'm trying to come up with words to put together as a song. I'm getting nothing. It all just keeps changing. After about 10 people or so, I finally got the nerve to step out to the aisle behind this guy who had started a line down the middle. AS soon as I got out there, it was weird because I was kind of nervous but at the same time the presence of God was so strong I could hardly stand up. The guy that sang before me did such a wonderful job my eyes were tearing up, and I'm thinking great, I can't even start singing without crying.
I walked up and took the mike, I turned toward the side of the room. I had my eyes closed so it didn't really matter where I was facing. I just starting with a little ohhs and ahhs, no words, and then it just flowed out of my mouth. I sang to Jesus, it was just me and HIM. There were no other people in the room to me. I was so lost in HIM. I sang about being on the edge of a cliff. and just to step off and fly, and then fun into HIS arms, HIS arms of Love, and that He would just hold me Close. And I just broke, I just started crying. I basically sang it to my self. About how He loves me, and I am His daughter and I'm just like Him and I love him and I will love him for all the days of my life.
It was the best moment of my life. I didn't think about anyone else.
I truly believe that that was just for me.(I'll be selfish)
I really needed that. It was so freeing.
So for all the thought I took into trying to formulate a song, didn't really matter, because HE gave me the words as I opened my mouth.
It was such an amazing experience.
So instead of being picked out of the crowd to sing, I had to take the step to go up and take the mike and sing. I'm kind of glad it worked out that way because I needed to take that step out and get over the nerves and just let Jesus shine through me the way I really want Him to and the way I really know He does, and that is through my voice.
After that Judy Franklin came up and told us more stories, and then we all had encounters and went to heaven. It was awesome. I'll write about it tomorrow night after the next session. :)
Good night friends.

Love love love!!!
-Lovely, beautiful cute. Erin