Return from Honduras!!!

Well I've made it back to the United states, After much ado with the Honduran government. :) They loved me so much they wanted to keep me there... hah well not entirely true..... LONG story but basically i didn't have my visa that i filled out on the plane ride down there stapled in my passport because the official didn't do it when i got there and he didn't tell me that i needed to keep it for on the way out. So there was like 1 hour of waiting to see if I was going to make it on the plane, so it was very scary and terrifying. I did get out with like 10 minutes until final boarding call. I did get first class so that was amazing. First time ever! It was great.... I'm a spoiled Princess now ;)

Honduras was just great. It was a great trip. We really learned to go with the flow as we didn't know what was going to happen next. We had to be ready for anything. We did go and minister at a few churches and saw many healings, and got to love on the children. They are so amazing. They are so loving.... The 3 day crusade that we were going to be apart of didn't really happen so much with our doing, Heidi Baker and John and Carol Arnott who were going to be getting off a cruise to speak didn't make it because the waves were to rough for the boat to anchor, so we just did it ourselves and spoke to the pastors, and then did prophetic art for the kids. There is a real power struggle with the pastors so we weren't able to really do as much as we thought and as we wanted to because they really wanted to keep it all in there control. We had such a great team, they were so awesome. Really worked together well and we love to be around each other so that helps too ;)
Here are some pictures from the trip. I did take several pictures... It was so beautiful. :)

Here is our Hotel, it was very very nice, it was right on the water, the picture below this one shows the view from the walkway right near the pool.





This is a view from the pot-hole filled road we walked down right along the beach to get to the restaurants and shops we went to for meals and our free time :)



The sunsets were amazing. I think I got one just about every night. It was so beautiful.



And here is a picture of the whole team just before we went to the airport.



That gives you a little taste of the trip. I will hopefully get more details and maybe more pictures up soon.... I have so many to go through... :)

You are amazing.

Here's a verse that I just heard the other day that I absolutely love.
Malachai 1:11
"My name will be great among the nations, from the rising to the setting sun."

how great.... :)

A Word from the Lord #1

Obviously from my previous post life has been quite chaotic. I'm learning to find a balance with work, school, friends, and talking to my loves back home. Everything has a place, its just a matter of finding it, and being willing to sacrifice some things.
** I forgot to tell you.. I had the absolute most WONDERFUL surprise this weekend. Friday morning, Michael called me and woke me up I believe. Then about 11 o'clock or so, he called again. I saw that he was calling but couldn't answer at the time, so I just let it go to voice mail. Upon hearing this voice mail I decided that I love listening to voice-mails. Especially from Michael because they are always so sweet. He said in he message that he loved me lots and that he had a surprise for me and said for me to call him, well then he changed his mind and said well never mind I'll call you tonight. I had already told him that I had planned for two of my friends to come over and watch a movie. So the day went by and the evening came, I had dance and then my friends came over. About 9 o'clock, or so, after a lovely dinner, and half of Julie and Julia, my phone rings, and it was Michael, so I quietly answered and was like hello... I'm watching a movie... and he was like, did you get my message earlier, and I said yes!! and he said well go check your door, I want to see if it worked, and I was like what?? I immediately got butterflies in my stomach and paused the movie :) [the girls were like ohh boy, what is going on!!!] I opened the door and found a very colorful string tied around the doorknob. I told him what I saw and he said, FOLLOW IT. so I did, in the freezing cold mind you. with only socks and my comfy clothes on. All through the apt. parking lot to a brick wall that leads to the lower wall, when I couldn't pull the string any longer. I looked over the edge and there was Michael and Norma!!! It was quite the surprise! I loved it. My friends were like freaking out thinking he was going to propose.. haha. but he didn't but it was the most amazing surprise yet! p.s. I do love surprises you know!!
so continuing on to this week........
This week has been absolutely amazing. Due to personal convictions Michael and I fasted from talking this week. It didn't sound fun at first, obviously, however everything, and I mean EVERYTHING that I had a question about in my heart, has been answered. Its kind of like an "in your face" sort of answer.

Day 1: I woke up later than planned, but was off to a great start. Work was quite calm this day, alot going on but not completely overwhelming. BSSM: DANNY SILK.... Now I have to tell you that Danny Silk was already here the whole weekend. (which is why Michael and Norma decided to come this weekend and not just any ol' weekend)so he's already laid a pretty good foundation of teaching. Tonight we had an amazing time of worship and then he did a teaching. the topic: The Process of Love No joke. I was literally blown away, Bullseye #1! Exactly what I needed to hear. He went through the "process" of learning to fully love others. Because the Most Important thing I could do with my life is LOVE! Its the Heartbeat of Heaven. I can't tell you everything that I learned, I may have to write a book, but I will tell you that one of the most important things I learned this evening is the answer to this question: Why should people get married???? People should get Married because they are a LOVER. The process of becoming a lover goes from being a Servant (Dependence) to becoming a Son/Daughter :) (Independent) and then a Lover(Interdependence). Now obivously there are many points in between but maybe I'll write about that later. (Considering this is getting long)
One last nugget on this thought: at the end we broke off the orphan spirit and all that comes with that, and declared that I am secure, I am a lover and I have something to offer other people because I have strength and benefits.

The Lord is so faithful to His promises.

Sincerely,

a Beloved daughter of the King

Keep it moving....

Life just keeps on moving. I just described yesterday that I feel like I've jumped off a cliff only to realize I don't know how to fully engage the parachute, but I know that I need to so I've got to quickly learn how to activate it to land safely.
Day by day just seems to be floating by. I've been growing so much. It's kind of funny... I think back and I realize no one tells you how hard transition is going to be. I just thought well this adventure is absolutely God and went for it. Which it is totally for God and has been the best thing ever, there's just so much to learn from growing just in the midst of it that there's not much time to stop and just overlook everything and really understand how you feel and how things are going.

I just got back this weekend from MorningStar Ministries, I went with a group from Bethel Atlanta to the Outpouring services. It was wonderful. Worship was absolutely divine. Josh Baldwin lead worship and it was so great I even bought a CD!!
After getting home last night, I just had a little bit to kind of digest all that has happened and realize that I'm in the midst of some amazing things and the LORD is still faithful, He's right by my side. I don't know where I would be with out HIM. He is so so GOOD!

Let the Song come forth

Tonight was a great night at BSSM Atlanta. Because of a function going on at OM we couldn't meet in our normal room. We met only as 1st year and we were in the small chapel located downstairs. Now this is considerably smaller than the worship center that we are used to. We were pretty packed in there. We had a sweet intimate time of worship, it was great.
Now a couple of times in worship Tracy Cooper has come around with a mike and had people sing prophetically on the spot. Everytime she did this I was like oh, my what if she picks me. The first time I was freaked out, and then the second time I was like well this wouldn't be so bad. Well we've not done that for about 3 weeks now. So tonight, we had a lot of just instrumental parts of the song "Freedom Reigns". Everybody is really singing and getting into it,really releasing freedom, it was awesome. I'm thinking to myself, wow I really hope they do the spontaneous prophetic song, because I wanted to be picked, I was totally ready. A few minutes later the worship leader says that they are going to open the mike to people that feel like stepping out and embracing the freedom in the room. As soon as she said that my heart just starts racing because I know that its partly for me. I didn't move. A few minutes later Scott gets up and says how we all were just singing and as soon as she opened the mike up everyone got quiet, and no one moved. Well this older man who is really amazing, Tom, got up and sang then a few more people, it was really freeing just watching these people worship. It was like stepping into their prayer closet and just enjoying them worship Jesus. As all of this is going on my palms are sweating and I'm trying to come up with words to put together as a song. I'm getting nothing. It all just keeps changing. After about 10 people or so, I finally got the nerve to step out to the aisle behind this guy who had started a line down the middle. AS soon as I got out there, it was weird because I was kind of nervous but at the same time the presence of God was so strong I could hardly stand up. The guy that sang before me did such a wonderful job my eyes were tearing up, and I'm thinking great, I can't even start singing without crying.
I walked up and took the mike, I turned toward the side of the room. I had my eyes closed so it didn't really matter where I was facing. I just starting with a little ohhs and ahhs, no words, and then it just flowed out of my mouth. I sang to Jesus, it was just me and HIM. There were no other people in the room to me. I was so lost in HIM. I sang about being on the edge of a cliff. and just to step off and fly, and then fun into HIS arms, HIS arms of Love, and that He would just hold me Close. And I just broke, I just started crying. I basically sang it to my self. About how He loves me, and I am His daughter and I'm just like Him and I love him and I will love him for all the days of my life.
It was the best moment of my life. I didn't think about anyone else.
I truly believe that that was just for me.(I'll be selfish)
I really needed that. It was so freeing.
So for all the thought I took into trying to formulate a song, didn't really matter, because HE gave me the words as I opened my mouth.
It was such an amazing experience.
So instead of being picked out of the crowd to sing, I had to take the step to go up and take the mike and sing. I'm kind of glad it worked out that way because I needed to take that step out and get over the nerves and just let Jesus shine through me the way I really want Him to and the way I really know He does, and that is through my voice.
After that Judy Franklin came up and told us more stories, and then we all had encounters and went to heaven. It was awesome. I'll write about it tomorrow night after the next session. :)
Good night friends.

Love love love!!!
-Lovely, beautiful cute. Erin

~Adventures~

Wow, today is November 15. I cannot believe that it is half way through the month of November. Next month is December and then its 2010.. How weird does that sound.
This past month has been an amazing journey. I've moved into a two bedroom apartment with my friend and co-worker Christianna. My best friend Joshlynn was here to visit, I went home to visit my friends and family!!! And throughout all that I've really come to grow into who the Lord has really made me to be.

Today at church we had a guest speaker, Judy Franklin, who is Bill Johnson's personal assistant basically. She was just so real. it was great. I could fully relate because I feel like since I've moved down here, that I'm really really becoming my own person. Everyday is my own, its just me and Jesus. I've been put in a place that's not always comfortable. Everyone at church doesn't know me, which is what I've been used to. I'm fully becoming the person that God has created me to be and its awesome. There have been a few rough patches but its been worth it. So at any rate Judy talked this morning about this vision that she had one time when she was taken to heaven. God was walking with her down this gold brick laid path and there were these little obstacles. She walked over to them and just looked at them, then they continued to walk. Then she would turn around to look at these obstacles because they just kept getting bigger. He said, "Don't look at the obstacles, they will continue to get bigger, then they may grow to stop you in the path that I have laid out for you." He then began to show her the different paths of other people. Every path looks different....
Each and every person is called to different things. You may be called to be a Doctor while I am called to be a worship leader. It doesn't matter. Do what God has called you to do. If you begin to walk on someone elses path, you are inhibiting them from being able to do what GOD has given them the grace to be, and He has not given you the grace to do.
This really hit me because this applies also to more than just life callings but also our gifts. I believe my gift is hospitality, and singing. I don't have a strong gift for evangelism, or praying for people. I love on people. And that is okay! I walk where God has put for me to walk. There is such a freedom in that. It is actually a sin for me to feel guilty that I don't walk where so and so walks. It is a sin for me to believe that my hospitality gift isn't as good as your gift of evangelism or your gift of relating to people. GOD LOVES ME right where I am at. I just keep my gaze fixed on HIM. He is the one I'm after. I only please HIM.
People, but me especially get so caught up in judging things that we do. We've come up with a scale of rating testimonies, like if its not some big healing than it is not worthy of being shared. That is not true. My testimony of me actually talking to someone and being able to share with them the Love of God is just the same as someone else praying for someone their leg growing out. That may be there gifting, the Gift of Healing. where mine is not so why do I expect to have that sort of testimony. My gift is Love, so that is where we will see fruit in me is through love and loving on other people.

What has God called you to do? Where is your path going?

Judy also challenged us to take sometime to just sit and rest in the presence and ask God to come and give us a hug.
I was just online chatting and playing around on Facebook and then I was watching TV which I don't do much of, and I couldn't find anything so, I looked up a spontaneous song that Jenn Johnson sang on youtube, and I just laid back and the presence of God was so thick right around me it was crazy. He is so faithful and loving and GOOD. GOD IS SO GOOD.

I've learned so much about myself recently. Living on my own I've really come to learn who God has created me to be. I am a beautiful young, mature woman who Loves the Lord, who loves people, loves to dance, sing, laugh, and brings joy to people. I can't tell you the number of times I've been told that I'm cute, beautiful, fun to be around and that my laugh is contagious.
That is so life producing. I'm not even trying to be funny, or to be cute. Honestly the past few weeks, I've not really felt that way. I've got this ridiculous haircut that I didn't even really like once I first got it, that I'm sort of growing a custom to, that everyone else seems to like.. haha go figure.
but its so encouraging. I believe that I'm becoming more beautiful because I'm becoming the woman that God has created me to be. I'm becoming HIS beautiful Beloved.
That is who I am.

- His Beautiful Beloved

Grayscale

Grayscale is a million shades of gray. We look in a lot of different places for the answer to what is right or wrong in the media. If I don't the definition defined by God for something in my life, something or someone will define it for me. The only way that gray is defined is because of how light shines through the color. The only way we know the answer to specific situations is by letting HIS light shine through.

I recently listened/watched a video featuring Jenn Johnson. It was absolutely amazing!
We get so wrapped up in looking for the answer. We've got to figure out our lives by connecting with every issue with His light to define in HIS scale where our answer lies. We've got to look to God. God is the source. Friendships and leaders are vital but relationship with God comes first. When you partner faith with active faith and hearing him out of that Faith is amazing. I take who I am and bring it to HIS table. I can take every situation that I have to the table and ask the Holy Spirit about it. We focus so much on who HE is we miss who WE are.
If I become to obsessed with who HE is then I miss who He has made me to be. What are the things I love in life?? What are my dreams? What makes me come alive??
Then partner with who He has called me to be.

Who is the Holy Spirit, God, and Jesus to me?
How do I relate to HIM??

I've been thinking alot about how I relate to the Lord. I've always seen Jesus as my Prince, and I'm HIS Beloved Princess. But it's not easy to live like that all the time. I tend to forget about that some days and I just live as if I'm a regular person. It takes reminders and setting things before myself to act like that.

There have been alot of changes and things taking place in my life recently. I've come to realize how much I've grown up over the past few months. It feels like its been years, and I feel like I'm about 24. :)But the Lord is so good. I've had amazing encounters and connections with people that I would have never dreamed of.

At Bethel Atlanta we just had a guest speaker Randall Worley. He was phenomenal. Its going to take me a little bit to continue to process what he spoke about but I can't wait to share it. It's good.
I will share this one thing. He was talking about the significance of numbers. The number 7 being perfection and then the number 8 being new beginnings. Well for singers, when warming our voices up we sing the doe, ray, me, fa, so, la, te, [doe]..... Well if you look at it the last thing you say is doe- which leads to the next level, and before it is 7 notes. Isn't that amazing.
He just has all these little nuggets like stored in his head and he just spills them all out and its just incredible.

More to come.
:)

True Beauty and some....

Michael asked if I would help him research something for his paper. The topic was "effects of advertising on woman's self image." I began to look at different articles. There were alot of research papers that people just had posted on the web. I also remembered a Dove advertisement that I had seen that had alot to do with this. It was for the Real Beauty Campaign. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYhCn0jf46U
It's called Dove Evolution. It is absolutely brilliant. When I first watched it I had no idea that that many edits were done to a picutre before its published into a magazine. Its like really. What can we even believe about what any of the media tells us.
I began to look more into some of the articles they had published there. One of the articles I read, stated a statistic that said that only 2% of women in the world are comfortable enough to consider themselves Beautiful. I was really shocked by that. I mean I know that alot of women have self-image issues but only 2% of the women in the world could actually say that they are beautiful. That has to change.
I believe the Lord is raising a generation of people that understand how the Lord is really moving. I just heard Paul Manwaring speak last night and he was talking about how the Lord is Moving. Technology is transforming and expanding every single day. You may get the newest computer and within less than a year its already out of date. The media has a way of exposing things that we don't need to know. They are very creative but many times give off the wrong side of the message. I would love to hear ALL positive thing in the news, then maybe it wouldn't be called news. Can you imagine if the media industry was all occupied by Kingdom People. What would THAT look like?? That would be amazing. That is where I think we are moving too. This generation is so hungry for the spirit and how the Lord moves. We will be the people that will be leading this nation not too far from now.
God is so good. He knows all the things there ever is to know. He loves us, and He gets so tickled when we discover things that He has put just out of reach for us. Like when the next invention is made. How incredible. He never grows tired of our excitement over new inventions and things like that.
You know another thing thats so amazing..... GET THIS! We are made in HIS image, right? okay, so We are all made in His image, BUT we are all different. God hasn't run out of ideas. He is so so so so so creative.
Another thing is that when we express ourselves we are expressing God! We have the infilling of the Holy Spirit in us, so whatever we do, we are brining Glory to HIM. Imagine watching the news and hearing testimonies of what the Lord is doing all over the world. That just blows my mind. I can't wait to see that.
In the meantime, Express yourself. Be who you ARE!
You are beautiful, handsome, fearless, patient, kind, loving, peaceful, Glorious, etc.
Don't forget it!
Go and spread glory wherever you go.