Spirit-Filled Life

I can't believe this. I had trouble logging into my blog again just now, I have too many password combinations and/or e-mail addresses.
At any rate... I'm sitting on my nice little porch this fine Georgia evening, an amazing cool Fall evening. The beautiful moon is out, the grasshoppers are chirping and the little toads are out. One just about hopped on my foot just a moment ago.. ahhh.. that was quite startling.
I've now officially lived in my own Studio for4 weeks this week. It has been quite the experience. Up and down, side to side, CRAZY! It has been so good, weird, tiring, amazing, lonely, hard, fun, sad, happy.... All at the same time. It has been good for me to live on my own and learn how to just keep up my own life. Which with that its been pretty waeird too, because I don't have anyone keeping track of me, and I don't have to keep track of anyone else. That part I guess has been pretty great. About 1 week ago, I was really battling lies and just darkness about being lonely, and not deserving my job, and blah blah blah, I actually got sick last Monday. I had flu-like symptoms and went home from work early. I never got sick but I had the chills and a fever and congestion and cough. I rested all evening, and didn't make it to school. I talked to Michael later that evening, and he identified this as an attack from the enemy. HELLO!!! Yeah, it was I didn't really see it as that at first, sometimes it just takes an outsider to look into the situation. I was able to then know why I was sick and identify the lies that I was allowing to influence my daily life, that was getting me so down.
Eric and Candace Johnson had been in town last weekend and spoke alot about receiving blessings from God and how important it is to receive them and not say well, I don't deserve this and try to measure up to deserving it. The Lord just wants to bless us because of how amazing he has made us. That is exactly what was going on in my life at that point. I have been given this blessing of a paid job in a missios organization, my own studio with very good rent, and this amazing opportunity to attend Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry right here across the street from where I live and right where I work.. HOW CRAZY is THAT! I couldn't have even planned it.
I continued throughout the week with this on my mind. My mood changed throughout the week, I became very thankful for what the Lord has and continues to give and provide for me.
On Friday, I headed to Panama City Beach, FL with Lisa and Marnus and the rest of the BSSM. We drove about 6 hours, friday afternoon and finally got there about 6:30 or so with the time change, so it was like 530 there, or something I'm not sure that was kind of confusing. We walked on the beach a little bit, it was beautiful. Then we got some pizza, then Kristen one of my friends I met at the school came over and invited me to go walk on the beach with her and some other girls. We went and walked on the beach, about sunset I guess, it was beautiful. We all introduced ourselves. It was great. I was so glad that I went and I got to meet them. I really feel like they are going to be a core group of my friends that develop over this school year. This weekend from the beginning was such a great time to just get together and get to know people and make connections and hang out. After that we went back and had a Worship Explosion! It was great, we probably worshipped for about 3 hours or so, Then we had a fire tunnel to release love over us. It got pretty crazy in there. It was so much fun. We were drinking out of the bucket of love, and people were even throwing the bucket of love on us, it was pretty funny and intense.
Saturday morning, I got up about 730 to go to the beach for a workout session. WOW. It was pretty out there it was good at first and then it just got hotter and hotter, and the sand made it a little hard, It was a good workout though, definitely stretched out some muscles that I still need to work on ;) Then we had a huge breakfast, then had individual devotions. Then we came back together, divided up by 1st and 2nd year, and Tracy spoke. She is so amazing. She told a little of her testimony, and how she got to be where she was today, and I could really identify with her, I think we have alot in common :) She's Awesome. Then we had like the whole afternoon for free time after lunch. I went to the audition for the Worship team. I played the keyboard most of the time and then I sang back up on a few songs. It was pretty fun, it wasn't stressful or anything, just not many people and we just kinda played so that Matthew Hale could get an ear for how everyone worked together and how everyone played or sang within the band as a whole too.
Then I met up with some girls and Lisa to go to the beach, we hung out there, then we went to Target to get Starbucks at the kiosk in there. Then got back to the retreat center. We were planning on having a Beach Baptism that night. I got dressed and ready for the baptism because I decided that I wanted to get baptized to represent this new season in my life, and what I was yesterday I won't be that in 1 year, or ever again. We gathered downstairs and the storms rolled in. We all huddled under the deck, with the exception of crazy boys and girls swimming and dancing. We waited it out for a few minutes, even though it looked like it was there to stay. After a few minutes of pouring rain, dark clouds all around and a nice cool breeze, the rain slacked off and we began to walk across the street to the beach. As we got to the beach it had cleared and light was shining through in just the spot for us to have the baptism, then to the right and left of us it was still really dark and on one side you could see the line, of rain where it was just pouring down. Everyone made a circle in the water and Pastors Steve Hale and Scott Thompson got in the middle and then one by one whoever was getting baptized walked to the middle and everyone chanted their names and prayed for fire to fall on them as they went under and came back up. It was so amazing. You could feel that we were just connecting and weaving together as a family. We were out there for a good hour and half I'm sure. I think we baptized about 75 people. Then we had a little bit of time to shower off and then meet in the chapel for service. We had another amazing night of worship then Pastor Steve gave the message, and it was just beautiful. Then we had a time of prayer for a Father's Blessing, so all the Father's went up and prayed over whoever felt like they needed the Father's Blessing. (atleast I think it was Saturday night.. hahaha; It all kind of runs together now)
Sunday morning due to my soreness, I opted out of the Workout session. I walked along the beach and read a little bit, just thanking the Lord for how amazing He Is. Then we had another HUGe breakfast, then morning devotions, then we did skits that we had prepared the night before, which I forgot to mention, but we did that. The skits were supposed to be really funny and have the them identity. It was really fun. We had such creative skits, it was amazing. My team got 3rd place, well We really ALL won, but we did have judges so we got 3rd but it was so wonderful. Then we had worship again, AMAZING, I think this time I danced alot! I'm really moving more into that gifting of dancing :)
Then this afternoone I decided to hang out on the beach the whole time. I headed to the volleyball courts in the sand! I played a few games, kind of got a little discouraged because it was mostly big men who were really competitive and just like get the ball... ahhh!! "gotta Get your head in the game, gotta getcha getcha... " haha But yeah, it was rough, but there were a few very encouraging people, so that helped. I just rotated in, so I didn't play the whole time. Then got in the water to cool off, and then went walking with Kristen and Ashley, then went back and played volleyball and I did a whole lot better this time!! I was setting the ball up and serving like a pro, it was great.
Then we still had alot of free time til dinner, I showered and then sat by the pool and mingled with some friends. Then we had spaghetti dinner, then had Worship again!!! Amazing. We had a different leader this time, Patrick, he did a great job, apparently that group hadn't played together before but they did really great. The presence was so thick in there. It was so great. Then we had Prophetic time!!! The 2nd year students went to the front and called out different people, and then once they did that for a while they had the rest of us come up to teams of two and then they gave us prophetic words individually.
It was so amazing. Then we helped clean up around the camp, then I got 3 amazing messages from Michael and I decided to call him and I talked to him for a while, then headed to bed. Then we got up early this morning about 630 and headed back home.
Overall the weekend was so refreshing and definitely solidified somethings and was a great time of connecting and getting to know people better.
More to come on all my revelations, but this is probably alot to read already.

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